Inside my head

Screaming for my loss

And never had.

Wanted the rain

To stay on cusp

Of falling.

And I scream for a God

I never knew

And who’ve I seen

Twice in my life.

     But as soon as God came

     Like the rain

     It fell and for a day or two

     Stayed on ground

     But soon

     Was swept away.

Fuzzy, whispered words

    spread silent fog

and cotton softness

across the landscape of my soul

I, attentive, listen

   to the fulsome silence,

spread my self

    into the fog,

every soular cell in me

   baptized

Whispered, fuzzy words

            dissolve

into music and melody –

It was a dark night in another time

The roses bleed from their stems

The nails of love sealed the coffin that i couldn’t find

But death brings clarity

And all those forgotten dreams

And the ambitions of our younger days

In the silent light of an awakening morning

The grey clouds drifted away

We lie in our graves

And dream every dream we once made

and sometimes monochrome memories

blurry offbeat melodies of colour

circling the page like homing bombers

bellies full of hot perspiration

ready to drop

drip by searing drip

pages ripped and loose

plastic frayed and opaque

cataract visage

that face was mine a time ago

and then there

that picture not even mine

shes smiling out from all those

years    and even though

i know its not me

i swear ive been in her arms

You are the mist

That clouds my mind

Of pain

That hides truths

Behind a seductive kiss

Addictive love

Feelings I’ve long since imagined

Enough lies

Pride doesn’t hide

But

The mist surrounds me

Engulfs me

i see its haze

In all my directions

In all my dreams and happiness

Forced to breath its stench

It smells so good!

i choose to exist in this smog

i desire to hide in this unclear haze

In this love

Your beautiful mist.

   LIFE AND DEATH

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Every sleep is a death and

     every wakeup is a birth

     Life is in between it

     as a dream of our sleep

     From the opening to close of our eyes

     many struggles and desires play

    They keep us as dolls to pull and push

    We move in their directions with an illussions

Look at me and say "I don’t love you",

And maybe if you say that I would find it true,

And if you do decide to say it please don't mean it,

Because in my eyes us apart I just don’t see it,

Kiss my lips and say you want to leave,

Grab my hand and look at me,

You are just going through a faze,

Please it will be gone in a couple of days,

Wait! Don’t walk so fast I need you,