Trust Issues

How the fuck...
Can I trust...
When I don't even trust my own mind....
Trust is not something that comes easy.....
Your actions will show me the person you are....
Words are just decoration in a reality like mine....
Consistency...
Observations...
Actions matching the words said....
Oh yeah...
I got trust issues....
Promises broken...
Fucked up expectations...
The fact I still see the good in people...
With the things mutherfuckers have done..
That's deep enough...
And..
TRUST..
I could go on for days and days....
Why...
I've learned not to expect shit from anyone....
And...Yes that's a bit fucked up....
But...
As I said from jump....
How can I trust....
When I don't even trust my own mind