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Breakinglogic
Breakinglogic
Apr 03, 2010 ⭐ View statistics (Premium feature)

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Take a deep breath in
Concentrate, fake a smile
And submit again

These burdens are too much
Hidden under my skin
Contusions of burdens
Manifesting
Take a double take
Of this life I'm living
Shake a shake of
What I'm drinking
Feel the weight kick in
Stir and understand
My vantage distortion
Take a drink, breath in

Laying in my living room
Tipping the edge on a teaspoon
Twisting my lips
Allowing the sickening syrup
To allot on my mouth, strewn
Hung on this medicine
Take a deep breath in

And there's nothing worse than
Knowing I'm my own poison
I'm poised to just let in
Any numbing distraction
So long as I'm lifted
The wrong's only just shifted
By my own Dopamine-coated
Addiction

Just concentrate
Don't forget to keep breathing
— Breakinglogic, Apr 03, 2010

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Beauregard

Beauregard

16 years 2 months ago

I've become so

used to faking a smile, putting on the show of happiness and 'every is okay' that it has rendered me unable to discern depression and pain from numbness and from happiness. I went to the psychiatrist for the first time in my life on Wednesday and she asked me if I was happy and I had to tell her straight up that I didn't know what the difference between happiness and depression was anymore. Depression had become the norm. Although I'm not a drug addict I can definitely relate to this poem. I don't connect with many poems on the level that I have with this poem and if I let myself I'll start crying about it in a minute. Just so you know. breakingLogic thinks: oh crap I may have just made some random internet chic cry. On a lighter note: I wrote a short story about addiction. My character freebased/injected like the addict in this poem (the spoon and flame methods) I think this poem expresses what my character was supposed to feel in a much better way than my story did. So I'm taking notes. :) Kelsey
Breakinglogic

Breakinglogic

16 years 2 months ago

Hello Kelsey. That is quite

Hello Kelsey. That is quite a comment you left me :) I too have faked a smile for a lot of my life, it's become second nature. I definitely agree that it becomes hard to tell whether your content or depressed. I hope you can soon remember how to really smile. I am happy to hear I could reach out and make a connection here. I am also glad it sparks a little inspiraition for you. Thank you for the very nice comment. Best of luck to you :) peace and cheers, logic
J

Jonesk21b

16 years ago

hey man

I enjoyed the hell out of it. Keep writing