Drowning

I stare at the smoke of my cigarette,
I look in disgust as I need it to rest,
I feel the nicotene grasp my throut,
I'm so young I've already choked,
Distance yourself,dont get to close,
Never thrusting,unhealthy I know,
Love is trust,or so I've heard,
Sometimes I wish I were a bird,
Not in body but in spirit,
Somber thought,evanesce from my mind,
By default sometimes I wish,
You and I shall get through this,
They want me to be someone I'm not,
While I just want to tie this knot,
Bear your kids,get out of my face,
The camistry between us could destroy this place,
To me,you are prodigous,
Do you understand,or do you need,Heiroglyphics,
I never make sence my writing is accursed,
Canyou see me because I dont...
I've lost myself in this abyss,no chance to surface,
Can you help me?Please?Hurry!Quick!!!
Thats what I thought,Dont wotty just rest,
I dont want to be rescued,dont waste your breath.