Diary Of A Lonely Soul (adult content)

Why don't the girls like me?
It just isn't fair,
I cannot help it,
If the boys like to stare.
The boys all want me,
They think I am the hottest in school,
The girls are all jealous,
They are heartless and cruel.
It is not my fault,
That their boyfriends want me,
I can't help that they love me,
Why can't they see.
The boys tell me I'm beautiful,
That no one sucks dick like I do
That I fuck like a woman,
I know this is true.
The other girls are prudes,
They can't please their men.
They aren't sexy like me
I have a body for sin.
I am the girl they all want
No finer girl can be found,
If this is true, why do they say it
Only when no one else is around.
They don't ask me to movies,
Or hold my hand in the hall,
In fact in public,
They don't see me at all.
Those prudes get the attention,
And get asked  to the prom,
I guess that night I'll eat cookies,
And go on "Lonely Girls Dot Com.
I thought if I gave them,
Such a good time,
That I would no longer be lonely,
That happy days would be mine.
But I am just a phantom,
That they fuck in the night,
I know what you are thinking,
I'm a pathetic sight.
I am a whore, that's what they see,
I have ruined my life with my choices,
But soon I'll be free.
I just wanted to be loved,
Oh how hard I tried,
But they will no longer be laughing,
When they see I have died.
I'll have my own page in the yearbook,
They will remember my name,
My death will shock the community,
They wont' be the same.
Maybe one day they will realize,
i had a story to tell,
My suicide will be worth it,
Though I will burn in Hell.
I know what you're thinking,
"This chick is insane,"
But this has to be better,
Than living with pain.
So as these pills start to take me,
I feel myself drop,
I'm filled with such bliss,
As my beating heart stops.