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No Longer

All these new places and new faces, usually it's the same situation.
It's like no matter what I try and do, people don't want to hear the truth.
No longer do I hear, "I love You," How I wish my recent past I could undo.
I feel as if life has deserted me, dropped me as if I was a fallen dream.
No longer can I find my fearless wings, No longer will my heart forever sing...
No longer do I feel like I have the strength deep inside, I stand alone unable to cry.
For some reason I continue to try and try, No longer do I feel I have the right to survive.
But I still search deep and stand with all my might,
I don't want a needle and a pipe in my hands when I die.
I look out into the stars in the sky, and I wonder, how the hell do I do this right?
I know there has got to be more to life, I'm tired of intoxicating myself to stay alive.....

I know I'm strong, I can handle my own, so why do I choose the streets when I could have a home??
I'm 17 going on 50, I've lived a life not meant for me. this is not how I had it dreamed,
Maybe one day everybody will see. Maybe one day I'll actually be a somebody.
I have so much anger, I'd be better off in a vault.
All my pain and trauma they say it's not my fault....
So I ask who's is it? You know what the say? "Nobody's," or "The person who did it."
So guess what? I think they are full of shit. No longer will I stand by,
Letting strangers live my life, No longer will I dream about the day I die.
No longer will I be unheard, No longer will I be so unsure.
No loner will I suffer from mypast, I'll look forward to the future, finally at last!

No longer will they take my pride, They system will no longer control my whole life.
No longer will my goals be out of sight. No longer will my fears control my mind.
No longer will I be scared and run and hide. No longer what I believe will I deny....
No longer will i be weak, No longer will I forgetmy dreams,
No longer will my heart and mind retreat,
I will be an individual who has learned from the mistakes, I will be strong and hard to break.
I will be me, I will be all that I can be, I am Eyez the street kid with a dream.
I have love and it's a beautiful thing, tell me, what more do I need??
— EyeZ street geist, Nov 29, 2008

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Region, Country: California, USA

Favorite Poets: Sylvia Plath, Dickinson, Shakespeare, Rudyard Kippling, and others

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deelilah

deelilah

17 years 6 months ago

Hi EyeZ

Are you sure you're only 17? You've got a pretty intense piece going on here. I can tell that writing poetry helps you to focus and get through some stuff. Keep writing it. There's some nice rhythm going on here. The words seem to begin to flow as you get into the poem. I admire the fact you're trying to take responsibility for yourself. Best wishes. Keep up the good work. Deelilah PS I see you picked Janet Fitch as one of your favorite authors. Ah yes, "White Oleander" I picked her as one of mine too.