take a bite

how many years will it take?
how many selves?
I take a bite

which parts are left to accept?
I know her
And i said sorry to her
Paid her a visit
Tried on her shoes
Too small
I undid the laces
Took them with me
Carried like armour

I know him;
his dreams
The stars in his eyes;
a swing from a tree by the river,
A bike path through the forest he visited a couple times a week
(alone)
Pretending.
his dark lit room.

I heed
-take a bite

Locked them out
or locked himself in
keeping secrets
One after another
snowballing-
there is nothing left to see

I lock myself in
I lock them all out
Safe here, safe now
Alone
I take a bite

What’s mine cannot also be yours
I don’t trust you
I keep hold

Guarded the sparkle in his eyes
It took years
But it’s since returned

I remember now
I take a bite

the dreams that follow you
the dreams you won’t let go
I keep hold

How many years?
How many selves?
which parts are left to accept?

nothing more to do
what is mine is not for you to approve