Sick Kitty

You haven’t read this nightmare yet, sometimes I drink just hoping to forget I have known the pain that it can cause to do it all again without even a pause… It’s my self destructive neutron spiral a dissection of a mad helix, gone viral telling hell that I have warmed over again but what’s the real difference in the end Fuck it all! No one knows how I’ve tried or that I was willing to lay down and die tried killing myself with drink and smoke It feels like I am surviving a really bad joke Turning on a dime for just another chance screw the fantasy of the clouded mid-night dance take me somewhere I haven’t been before I’d follow like a sick kitty who just wants more If I could dare, I just might not simply follow but I only find myself empty inside and hollow grasping at chemicals I already know don’t work but lacking in desire to find a new will to assert Selfish, indulgent, parting with the last remark how did I end up at the deep end in the dark what possessed me to think my mind could cope capable of more than tying a hang man’s rope Who did I think I was, that I had what it took I am pretty sure this shit was never in no book a never ending well to a bottomless barren pit I am left hardly knowing with-in who’s skin I fit