Bidders Triers Failures Mockers

i can imagine failed suicide bids are a real kick in the teeth
not cry outs but actual die outs
 

waking up in the hospital bed
 

for a matter of hours/days you may feel some relief
or even joy at the escape from the escape
 

surely though the compound of guilt, fear and regret
will soon overpower those wilting rays of survival instinct
 

failure on the grandest level possible

maybe a certain percentage will grasp this unwanted at first
second chance

 the majority will double the dose and add a little
vodka to the mix

and fail again

not worth thinking about

also imagine the part timers
whom a need for attention of any kind will suffice
bless them
by cursed luck go and slit the wrong/right vein
and the blasted battery goes at the wrong/right time
or that vitalist of organs has cheek to say

fuck this malarkey

what a waste
how sad