The Coroner, The Obstetrician

ive been awake for a day and a half, too much on my mind to sleep. I saw a woman on the ground after she had jumped from a bridge when i was driving home from work. i remember my friend who used dmt recreationally and told me about it, I have been thinking about how this resident in the home i work in (people living with developmental disorders) talks about death matter of fact she is accepting of it while keeping a happy tone, just so much to think about really. it needed a vessel.

A friend of mine has used dmt made in a lab brought by someone he knew, he told me he saw his life like a movie, complete out of body experience. fit most of the articles i read. I don't support or reject the activity. it was the first i ever heard of it. i thought it was beautiful to hear that we produce it when we are born, and when we die, sounded mysterious. its fascinating. I am a humanist, I don't align with any set religion, but i believe in the power of each person, and honestly hearing about dmt and its effects around death and birth, seemed to show more of what we have within our natural abilities. i was thinking about how we have so little traditions with live birth, and preparing our dead. i thought it was beautiful to hear of ancient burials where as soon as someone passed away they would be curled into the fetal position and buried in the womb of earth, as if to suggest new life. when children were being born, some midwives would save the 'lifeblood', there would be hands, lotions on the mother, an entire sisterhood surrounding her. many cultures wouldn't let men around, it was better luck to only have those who could create around. a lost friend of mine made a picture years ago, with an embryo hooked up to wires that looked like headphones, saying we are contacted by machines from before our own births. i still think of that. nothing wrong with technology, but the loss of tradition and rites of passages is tragic. the obstetrician and coroner, sometimes compassionate but not as a requirement. the doctor who delivered me with my mother wanted to leave and go home for dinner or something and said he didn't want to waste his time, my dad demanded that he stay. my mom said he was tense, impartial. tons of things are inpartial in life, but the beginning and the end should be intimate, always. there is a duality to mentioning dmt, like you are describing. these doctors may try to describe it as only a chemical but it is truly a miracle.