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THE HEART COMES FROM CANCER..WHY?

Im here now writing from cancer,Not poetry not anything.

Im losing MY mom one day at a time with nowhere else to turn but neo poet.

I  stay strong as mom weakens,just  waiting........

Life makes alot of sense even in my bitterness.Im so scared.....

For her i will be perfection,even though i ve been nothing but.



But mom says ive been perfect.But were always perfect in our parents eyes.

I really hope ive made her proud.Even if not in the way i wish i could have..........

I never thought i would see the day when my mom was weak enough to leave me.

I know she will never really leave me,but god does it hurt for me,to not make her angry from time to time LOL.

I speak as if she has already left but i know she hasnt.BUT My tears fall way to early......................



This is not poetry!...This is me.............................................................God  i miss her and she is still here...............

How could i have been perfect enough for her. Even though she has said i was..........

My mom is perfect and has never deserved this.Cancer is the worst thing that an angel has ever been given........

She is my angel and always will be.This is not poetry! This is me......Why has it been so hard....................................................????

Cause its mom thats why....We only have one...................................................................................................................................................



For me please!!!!  love your mom...When she is gone she is gone..............................xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxox.............................................
— thewaitingroom, Jun 08, 2010

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Ravenshakti

Ravenshakti

16 years ago

Dearest Billy...

My heart's with you, my dear friend... My best brother, the one I was closest to, ( and still am) died of cancer when he was in his early twenties... it was a very rare form of cancer;the treatment was very painful, and my mother started to fade away with him; she's still with us, but her heart never mended after he died. Yes, Billy... cancer is the worst thing that was given to an Angel; and the love you have for your mother, is the most beautiful poem in the world. I send you and your Mom, my good thoughts. Be kind to yourself Billy. With my love, Raven The Dragon in the Cave of Flesh: A prayer for help in dealing with pain I feel that a dragon has been using my body as his den. His snortings and convulsions are painful to me. And the pain has taken me to the brink of hopelessness. Please help me, Lord, in any of these ways: May the dragon leave my body, on a whim. May his visits become shorter. May I learn that he can be tolerated if only I can gain the strength to tame him. May I gain the strength to tame him. May my rescuers work well and drive the dragon from my body, with God's blessing. May I understand at last that there was never any dragon- it was only one part of my body sending to another part of my body urgent messages in my sickness. -Modern prayer from Sicily, Italy
Kailashana

Kailashana

16 years ago

I am a poet whose mother

I am a poet whose mother died in her arms...of starvation brought about by stomach cancer. She's giving you the last gift of herself as she is, not the way you would want her to be, of course. We ache with compassion and love as the child who knows we were never the perfect child, she, of course, knows she never was the perfect mother. Love bears all imperfections. May this day bring you closer yet. ~A "Even if I knew the world were to end tomorrow, I would plant an olive tree today."-- Francis of Assisi
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thewaitingroom

15 years 11 months ago

Thanks so much guys!!!! your amazing people..

Thank you all so much for your kind comments.It really means alot to know there are people out there like you.What a relief,im always here to talk if any of you ever feel like you need a chat with someone.I sometimes cant hold feelings back for to long before they pour over.Usually from over pouring lol....well thanks again so much really truly!!!!......................billy
Ravenshakti

Ravenshakti

15 years 11 months ago

Hi Billy...

You're very Welcome! It's so good to hear from you... Thank you for the chat invite! Be well, and be kind to yourself. With love, your crazy diamond friend, Raven
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magics02

15 years 11 months ago

Billy

I also feel you and in this read I hear what you are saying. We are ones so close to mothers and when they are ill like this with the devastating cancer I can only tell you I shall pray for you and her. I lost my cousin at the age of 42 she was like a sister to me, have lost lots of friends and other family members from cancer. Please know that I am also here for you should you ever want to talk. your in my thoughts and prayers Love,Mona xoxoxo