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Memory

 

I used to think there was plenty of time

but the clock ticked surreptitiously

and my universe changed in an instant.

 

And like stars that blast themselves into oblivion

in their relentless search for sustenance

I subject myself to it

every now and then.

 

I listen to the music

and in my mind I am again

sitting on the cold hard pew

at his funeral.

 

I weep.

The waters cleanse.

 

 

— judyanne, May 12, 2010

About This Poem

About the Author

Region, Country: Western Australia, AUS

Favorite Poets: Favourite poets? So many, so varied. I like particular songs, not necessarily the singer... and the same goes for poetry. I can honestly say though, that Alfred Noyes' The Highwayman was what inspired my love of poetry - my mother began reading it to me when I was still a baby, and it became my favourite bedtime story

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Critiques

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anonymous1

16 years ago

Unimaginable

Judy, I just read the 'jacket' of your book. I'm so sorry for your loss. I love everything about this poem. Lisa
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

thank you lisa

for your kind words. my loss was long ago and time is a great healer i also know he is in a good place, so i rarely 'subject' myself now. that is just selfishness. love judy xxx
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raskin

16 years ago

Well said poem on loss,

Well said poem on loss, memories never cease. Music is powerful in remembering. "Day O" does it for me. Tears do cleanse periodically. Very poignant Judy. raskin
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

thanks raskin

yes, music and tears cleanse "Day O"? not sure i know this one only know 'day O', day O, daylight come and i wanna go home' is that the one you're talking of? love judy xxx
Kailashana

Kailashana

16 years ago

I have no words so I offer a

I have no words so I offer a cyberhug of love (((((((JudyAnne)))))) Anna "Just as what you dream is your own and no one else can observe it, so the world you see is your own." ~ Nisargadatta
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

anna xxx

thank you, i will save that cyberhug for when I next need it. love and hugs to you judd xxx
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

lovely licia

thank you so much. as Kurt Kobain said 'thank you for the tragedy - it helps my art' love judy xxx
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panaella

16 years ago

sad

So sad, so soft, so sweet... poignant. Ells x
SH

shirley harrison

16 years ago

sadly beautiful!

Judy i can understand loss,as it happened to me! much love and i will send you a huge hug by fax! shirley harrison
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

so sorry shirley

we all have our own losses no-one is alone in that. may i ask who you lost? love judy xxx
SH

shirley harrison

16 years ago

I lost my 25 year old brother

However time moves us on we know what is in our hearts and the loss although is true, we grow stronger from the memories, judy I feel so sad even to write about this but its good to share with others who have lost, my grief is mine and i know that there will always be a worst story than mine! It makes me sad to see people suffer especially when its through a computer as all i want to do is hug you! If it wasnt for my brothers death i wouldnt be living my dreams as i feel some days especially at the beginning of my adventure in Iataly that he was actually with me! shirley harrison
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

they never leave us shirley

so sorry, but you're right - sometimes a tragedy shocks us into doing something we wouldn't have otherwise, making us stronger. love and hugs to you judy xxx
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magics02

16 years ago

Judy

It is hard for me to swallow after reading this and your boys picture, so beautiful my heart cries out to you. I would love to have that book. Please let me know and also if you were here right now we would share together the loss of someone so close to your heart. I almost could not comment but felt I needed to I love you Judy Mona xxoxoxo hugs from afar What does it say above his picture, it is hard for me to make out but the picture is beautiful, the eyes, his eyes like stars.... Judy I just read the piece of your book and see the name of it now. What a moving story and the book cover, I am proud of you and know this book was written in such a special way like no other. May his spirit always be with you dear lady. Hug TIME well spent is TIME well lived
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

magic mona !!!

you are a beautiful person and i love you thank you for your care. love judy xxx
xena465

xena465

16 years ago

Brilliant Judy

It brought tears to my eyes...I'm so sorry for you loss...beautiful picture...Twenty My Pretty Ponies. Rosina xena465
Nordic cloud

Nordic cloud

16 years ago

I second the hug Anna gave you dear judyanne from annanya

Ann of Norway How the human brain lets us take hold of something and never let it become part of what is, it hangs about haunting us in the minutes and days of our lives, when long changed into another reality we wonder if we wish to keep the sorrow and sad happenings as heavy lumps, emphasise them as burdens in our minds to slowly pollute the now, the present with all its positive joy and beauty; I am not sure the creator of the leaden lump would really feel happy being that lump and would wish us to absorb the happier sides of life, once together with them, and celebrate that we are still alive despite the loss. This can apply to a lover too, they can turn ones life into a living hell, my Aunt on sailing to Norway in the early 20's, met a man on board the ship, she fell in love with him, but when they arrived at the Oslo quay what did she see but his son and wife waving to him, he hadn't told her of this. She NEVER married, she became Roman Catholic in Oslo, something her father, the puritanical Scot was totally horrified at, and her life was weighed for ever with the weight of this experience. But...........we never learn to turn it all into the positive and be satisfied with that, or can we? You express this succinctly and well judyanne and bring out the sympathy that we possess in great amounts for the loss of your son. And such events create great art do they not? I second the hug Anna gave you dear judyanne from annanya
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

look up annanya

see the quote of kurt kobain's i wrote to licia. so yes, you are correct. and you are correct that jeremy would be really angry with me if i get too maudlin thank you for the hug, i'll save it for the times i need it. love to you annanya from judyanne xxx
Seren

Seren

16 years ago

Dearest Judd

I just want to say apart from that I am near to speechless this is a brilliant poem I know your son would be very very proud of his mum ... hugs across the never never hun love ya JayCee x x x ("Quote:-For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.-Ivan Panin")
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

thanks jc

glad to see you back - hope you're well hon. love and hugs to you across the desert. love judd xxx
loved

loved

16 years ago

i saw

I saw ...the Tsunami And tears flowed down my entire body I was cleansed Lovely tears At times purify Gr88888888 poem
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

thanks loved

your comments are always appreciated love judy xx http://www.strategicpublishinggroup.com/title/TwentyMyPrettyPonies.html
loved

loved

16 years ago

My comments

Are YOUR inspiration Tears of joy Ever flowing Hence no perspiration I enjoy you all what you say And That helps me In extempore poems To u to convey Like this one Listen… THANKS FOR LISTENING
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esperanza

16 years ago

very touching

i am so sorry for your loss.... i felt every word you said esperanza
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

hi esperanza

thanks for calling by - nice to meet you. love judy xxx http://www.strategicpublishinggroup.com/title/TwentyMyPrettyPonies.html
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scribbler

16 years ago

we always think we have

we always think we have eternity of time with loved ones until they're gone.Thanks for reminding me.Think I'll go kiss Susan......scribbler
judyanne

judyanne

16 years ago

hi scribbler

thanks for reading. savour every second ( I often forget to do so) love judy xxx http://www.strategicpublishinggroup.com/title/TwentyMyPrettyPonies.html