Bearskin Airlines

snow falling
the car radio playing the mix cassette
im already losing weight
cant afford to pay rent and eat

Then in 1994

you called and we were to meet
at a stop over at the Airport

the car had bald tires and i was so
careful   I made it and looked in
the terminal at the passengers
waiting out flights grounded
but I never saw you

whom could miss the red hair
the pale features
those beautiful brows

Never thinking to have you paged
or enquire

so fearful even now of people
and things sometimes

I assumed you left
or had hidden away

so I made that my
great sadness on the way
home   

to the cold apartment
couldnt afford heat

wondering for years
of that day

and still watching the
planes leaving the city
wondering of that night

what it was has and is

our history

and how I still
can drop through the
highs to sit with this

that driver driving home
and snowflakes piling
up on the roadway

how it still feels