Unconditional

My mouth is stained with words
bleeding into the mirror of my imprisonment,
any survival shattered
beyond all words
and I have no leaves to cover
myself, strewn about these continents
of me rising and falling like
occasional dreams for the dying,
carcasses of endless incarnations
into rivers from which there is no return

do not be fooled by my shadow
triumphing
I weep only for myself,
I can not unsay myself

it's been awhile since my last passing
beneath this sea, bless me for I have sinned,
I am beyond redemption
immersed and drowning in my solitude,

I am the gate through which I must pass,
sunlight all around me though I am
neither here nor there, neither heaven
nor hellbound,
lost for all eternity.

Save me, my fearless soul. 
You alone know me, dancing
on the grave of who I am,

fading into the darkness like a flower
whose day in the sun passes through
its one day of love, silent petals whirling
through time and space.