Help?

Help me please?
I only know one for the pain to ease,
He can stand to see me in pain,
But I feel insane,
I'll only stop for him,
Because I know I'm comitting sin,
I do love him alot,
But I can not stop,
What bring me life,
It all started with that kitchen knife,
I was so depressed,
My soul felt possesed
My mind is racing,
My addiction I am facing,
If you ever see me smile,
I'm most likely in denial,
I only wish to be happy,
But who knew the one in pain would be me?


                            -Poet_Laurete-