that white girl

conniving or
stupid i slept
with the very one
you said not to
then stopped talking

is there forgiveness
in you?
i'm too scared
to find out
anymore

found a website
to let it all out
told your friends
about it
don't think they got
the hints
no indirect contact now
either, huh?
what an ass
i've become

am

the shame in standing
wet-dicked
panting
wide-eyed
trying to hide
looking stupid

susana
i am
so sorry

keep waking to slaps
and curses
until i hear from you
willl i?

folding a licked crease
in my time-line
crooking back all that
i know
and know none
that know me

four times from
scratch now
each greater and lasting
alone this time
finally
so much space
and carpet

call me