OH, JUST A LITTLE CHAT WITH MY SELF

 Hay ADAM wha'ts going on

Nothing ADAM how are you

Not bad, except for all this snow that is keeping me from going to work

Ya thats got to sucks. no work no money, i don't even know how you pay your bills

Bills?

Ya you know like rent, food,  fuckin gas for your big ass truck you drive around in

Oh ya those bills, ya i just haven't payed the yet. I've bin living off my dreams and wishes these days

Dreams and wished, what the fuck are you talking about?

Ya well ever since i felt like i was going to have a heart attack at the age of 29..... i just don't give a fuck

Don't give a fuck? you have to give a fuck how are you gonna live if you don't give a fuck

A fuck is all i got, now why would i want to give that away. you mean after stressing out over all the fuck that i got, now you want me   to give a fuck, eh?

When i say give a fuck, i mean caring, don't you care any more

Noway, all I ever did was care and now i don't care. caring is what led me to an anxiety attack, it litterly made me fell like i was           dying, my chest tighten up, i couldn't breath, i couldn't talk, i was a mess... a fuckin mess...

Sure i can see how that would make you want to cool down a bit, but i don't know how you don't worry about being thrown out on       the street, and losin that beautiful truck you got

Nope, i used to care and give a fuck so much that it made me worried. my definition of worried is pains in my chest and lumps in my throat, now why would i want to live that

I'm not saying that you have to let everything give you a fuckin heart attack, i'm just sayin, hows your pains in you chest and lump in   your throat gonna feel when your walkin down the street, no truck, no house, mother fucker. worrying about where your                       gonna sleep. bet your gonna start carin about your feet and fingers that are freezing off and i'm sure your gonna give a      

Ya but how am i gonna do that? 

I don't know man, but you better think of something because i hate seeing you like this. all you do any more is sit on that computer     and face book the world, thinkin that you are keepin in touch with the world, when all your doing is livin every one elses                       fuckin life, instead of livin your own. i mean who said you had to be a roofer, you can't make money any other way. you                         seem to like painting cars, and putting flames and shit on them, maybe you should start givin a fuck about things that you                     like instead of things that you hate.

I like playin in my band too but i don't ever think i'm gonna make any money from it. you think i should just quite my job of ten years, that i've become the best of the best at, and start all over. with no money, no real expirience, at the bottom of the food chain again? i don't see how thats a good idea

Well it's better then the fuck all your doing now, any ways think about it cause your making me crazy. i've bin sitting here for two weeks, starin at this stupid, fuckin, computer, with an LOL there and a WTF there. "nobody want to here about something you haven't done." better start worrying, caring and giving a fuck, because your starting to give me anxiety now. you still got alot of fuck to give, NOW GIVE IT!!!!