Puppet Life Blind

the torch of wisdom have gone away
the school's hallway getting deeply gray,
all the books i read, i cannot play..
almost disturbed and unjust all the day..

that mirror took me eighteen years ago..
when that man raped his girlfriend on a party club,
and the fruit...the fruit of that sin!
me!! on an orphange living been..

mentors told me.."son.grow up..",
"just strive and you will survive"
God! what more can i wish onto this life?
rather than my family of a happy bind!!

my mother..my father..where are you now?
i kept searching for you in the next city and downtown!
i haven't seen you since i was spared from an abortion!
please see this child heart that cannot grow!!

thesis..homeworks..can i stand for long?
alone and alone...should i say bye and so long?
the past haunts me..can i now breathe my last?
to end this hollow agony finally and at last?

just luck lead to my graduation
as a cum laude, for i don't need any profession...
an old lady stood and told she needs to talk with me,
is she my mother? am i right? please somebody!

she told me the whole story..with tears on her eyes..
all's set for their wedding but my dad's lust striked fast!
She's the abortionist who supposed to be my killer!
thanks to you..but where was mother?father?

she blow a sigh and stared in the sky..
please tell me where! don't stare and sigh!
what? it can't be! how? "a tragedy nine years ago",she said
God!! why are they already dead!!