Electric Blue

Aug 22, 2009 ⭐ View statistics (Premium feature)

Worthless

Do you know what it is like to be
made to feel so worthless when
your heart is ripped out - torn
apart shattered splattered
onto the ground below

You cannot see the point of existing
at all your not wanted not needed
any where as you do not belong
you do not fit in

So much love to give but unrequited
spurned again and again as others
are so afraid but my love never
ever fades even beyond my
earthly grave

You are in limbo in the twilight
zone of a non-being just a
shadow invisible to all
around

Yet wonder if you exist at all nothing but
a blue haze silent shadows pass me by
in between worlds they do gently
brush against you to let you
know that someone some
thing is out there

Others seem to forget where true love
lies it never ever went away it is
always there just open your
heart open your eyes clear
the blue mist and see me
waiting in the wings

I want to break free and be in
the light to burn in the heat
of your flame always to
remain

Electric blue

— Electric Blue, Aug 22, 2009

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Critiques

Janice Pearce

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

Maggie I liked how you expressed yourself in this piece. Nicely done~I especially loved the last stanza! _____________________________________________________ Income-tax forms should be more realistic by allowing the taxpayer to list "Uncle Sam" as a dependent Anonymous

Electric Blue

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

EB What is the point of being? Electric blue

Seren

16 years 9 months ago

Awwwww Magz ...

This one is so sad, I want to break free and be in the light to burn in the heat of your flame always to remain And your point of being is to shine your misty blue light on us all, there is a unique quality of sadness you bear Magz , and it drips in every word , your valuable and special, to all of us ... Love and big (hug) Jayne x x "We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves. Lynn Hall" ...

lyz

16 years 9 months ago

Fave color

I can't believe all the great versus I have read in this past couple of days. With this poem I enjoyed it and if worthless means a priceless talent like yours, well, all I can say is, Great poetry. Lyz

Electric Blue

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

Lyz Worthless in this poem is about me even existing as others show interest and then just toss you away at a whim as they cannot trust their hearts out. so again another loss after loss me left here alone invisible not loved not wanted so what is the point of being here at all being born even. This is how i feel at this time always electric so blue

themoonman

16 years 9 months ago

Dear Maggie...

I hate that you are so sad, it is gut wrenching to feel worthless, I think it is something we all go through. Self worth is the all importance of loving ourselves, we have to find it within, can't get it from someone else. I hope you have a glorious Maggie, and bump into someone that will see you for you! Richard

Janice Pearce

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

Maggie, Richard is right about self worth and I think I know you enough, to know this is just a phase you are going through and it will pass. You are a nature lover and us nature lovers are strong and will survive. Hang in there Maggie you are worth much more than someone who doesn't see you as the special person that you are! _____________________________________________________ Income-tax forms should be more realistic by allowing the taxpayer to list "Uncle Sam" as a dependent Anonymous

Hooded Stranger

16 years 9 months ago

Worthwhlie?

I don't think we have crossed paths yet, but I am very familiar with your postings here on Neopoet. I have read everyone. I want to ask you a question based on the subject matter you cover and your state of mind. Do you find that writing your thoughts and feelings about how you feel make it easier for you to deal with your demons? I ask for a simple reason, I have been where you are, come out the other side, only to slip on the top rung and be back at the bottom. I write my better pieces when I am on the bottom rung. I am told by many people that writing down my emotions will help...it doesn't help me at the time, so I was curious what effect writing has on you. My problem is I exercise my demons rather than exorcise them, and thus they become fitter than me and turn right around and chase me harder than before! This particular piece grabbed me in ways that I wouldn't want to share here, but it did prompt me to write this comment. regards, HS ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "With all that I am and all that I could be, I walk this earth and yet nobody sees me".

Electric Blue

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

hello HS Where do I start. Thrown away as a child in an orphanage for 13yrs with my birth parents a couple of years complete strangers. Always been on my own have to be independant.I just lost my third husband this April to cancer again. I find writing my best council. But The love I have for someone that was meant to be but afraid of commitment are they so become distant and run away but all i long for is to love and be loved. So again alone am I invisible to the world rushng by I ask Why was I born into this Hell on earth. I take each day as is plans only let you down so why me again and again I am shown a little a very little happiness and then it is taken away HS I like the black and white photo I find it mysterious not threatening why are you hiding in the shadows like you this is where i feel safe maybe like my Velveteen Rabit Magic take a look and maybe you will see more of me. Electric Blue so blue

Hooded Stranger

16 years 9 months ago

I guess if I was...

...religious I would be telling you that God is testing you or something stupid like that and that God has a plan for you...personally, I have seen enough to know that we are stuck in this Hell. I take each day as it comes, sometimes I have to break those days down into minutes. I am so very sorry that you have experienced such sadness and grief. You are still with us, so you are strong inside...good for you girl! I actually find happiness in solitude, the less I have to deal with the outside world, the less it can get at me. B&W photo...it's just a self photo done by clicking the camera into the mirror at my reflection...black and white...I prefer to call it black and grey. Hiding in the shadows...safest place to be. I do so love your writings. "I find writing my best council" - then never stop, it might not be much but it is something. You will find many kind people on this forum, so let this be your home on those bad days. You have had many offers from members to talk to them if you are in need of a friend, I of course offer the same. Kindest regards HS ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "With all that I am and all that I could be, I walk this earth and yet nobody sees me".

Electric Blue

16 years 8 months ago

Worthless

HS I do find writing my best council as it never judges me just accepts me as I am. my greatest companion through the hell and the good times More hell then good times though. I am not religous but i would say that i am spiritual. I tool find comfort in my solitude in the shadows of the day and night. As I said In my Velveteen Rabbit Magic. That is me still waiting though. I had not ralised that you have read most of what I have written so you would of seen the highs and lows. But still these four walls not home just walls. I have no home as home is where my heart longs to be. In my art i ususally use pencil so most are several shades of grey some lighter some darker. but have started to use pastel and am suprised at the result which has been accalimed as well. but i do pen and ink which i do like as it is strong. But then my photography mainly of the woods and forests flowers i love to capture little things people never notice the beauty around them. As in my recent poems about my route to work in the early hours i breath in the moring dew the dampness of the rich soil smell the rain feel the gentle breeze the sunlight or the strong ruff winds bracing waking you up long to be naked so that the whole body can feel this. When up on my mountain I can do this walk freely I have no facilities of the modern world just be and adapt but to feel the full force of nature in the gentle sunlight or in a thunderstorm there is nothing like bearing all and become one amazing. Listening to the orchestra of nature the wind in the trees strong of soft. Listening to the stream meandering downt he mountainside bubbling away a constant heatbeat ice cold and crystal clear. You have drawn me in with your webb your writing entices me so. So off to read some more Thank you for you insight Electric Blue

Hooded Stranger

16 years 8 months ago

Electric blue hair girl

Writing never judges you although by sharing your soul, you open yourself up to 'others' judgement of you...I know from experience...and it was this forum too! "Solitude in the shadows of the day and night" - nice! I have read all your work in your profile...I may not have commented on them, but I have read, not judged and felt your despair. I have read many many poems on this forum and it is always your ones I tend to return to. I relate to so many of them. I don't know how busy you are but maybe we could discuss, some of these pencil drawings as I am looking for a few to add to 'The Magic Stone'...and wondered if you would draw me a few? No pressure, but I am interested. Kindest regards, HS ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "With all that I am and all that I could be, I walk this earth and yet nobody sees me".

Electric Blue

16 years 8 months ago

Worthless

HS I too take time to read a lot of poems on site but as you not always comment. I usually respond instantly and my comments have a habbit or turning into more poems. I am suprised that you have read all my work? You will see the ups and down of my sad and bright blue soul. But i hope you can visualise the different visions i try to write about. As for The Magic Stone The images turned in a film for me i was in the film behind them all the way but i was invisible a voyer maybe but I have some ideas. I am working 12r shifts now but i have ideas and will let you know I would be honoured. I have seven or eight other poets who have asked me to illistraite their works too But I am drawn to your amazing The Magic Stone It has set my mind running I have to follow my inner wavelentghs. So i hope to have some time off soon to relax and start to scribble. But I will read this again and i am sure new images will appear. I am glad as this will help me move on from the space i am in. Thank you my friend Electric Blue

yenti

16 years 9 months ago

A little Blue

Your worth is as the best of us, it is a time where you question everything you have done and that has been done to you. You are worth more to the world than gold or and precious thing that is only material, you are a most precious Spirit that has been tried with more than most people would ever go through, yet I can still see you there glowing with a love that is so strong and pure. This is where you are worth more than many others, your lessons in life have been cruel and there you are again still shinning out, this will see you through all things it will take time but as you know inside we have an eternity to live here or over there. Here you have us struggling with many things and trying to understand what this life thing is all about, one day something will say to you "Welcome great Spirit" you have done more than has been asked of you, now you belong to the love of eternity in the highest of places. Just believe in you and the tasks you have been asked to see or do, there are probably Angels that envy you a little not that they can feel envy, We will hold you as we have said in all things Just ask of us, there is still much to do, Yours Ian.T

Electric Blue

16 years 9 months ago

Worthless

Ian All I want is to love and be loved is that too much to ask but it is taken away totally. well I just have to try to get through each day Electric Blue

yenti

16 years 8 months ago

Maggie

You are loved by many, the love you seek, is one that you have seen and felt and that for the moment has moved out of reach, this always happens when you go through the things you are going through and then we feel so low and unloved. My little lady give yourself time, the love you had was so precious and filled you to the brim, though it is still there part of it, that is the physical part is as I said out of reach. That love is still there, now there is a task to do and that is the hardest bit where you have to come to terms with all these things that you now have and put them in their right places. These things will take time little one and a lot of pain and work on your side, the love side can only watch and send you love from where they are, in the quiet of the evening, you will feel them draw ever close to you, now they have to help you from there, only it is hard for them to do, as they can only tell you in their own way that their love is there still for you, as your friends such as us are there also,Yours Ian.T