Fallen angel

I remember when I met you.
I treasured how I felt.
Crimson covered my cheeks.
The Fall was fast.

Our hands entwined,
My heart in yours.
You carried me up hills
When I couldn't keep up.

You did what it took to make me smile.
You called me your angle
Said my laughter was your music
You whispered you loved me.

I believed you.

I remember the night  we discovered true beauty.
You woke me with a kiss.
I scowled at your grin.

With your sneakers and blanket we left.
2:35am
The moonlight fog danced around our ankles.

Through the woods and to a meadow,
A black stallion reared in warning,
with the swirl of fog to amaze me further.

The definition of beauty was clear.
You'd said this was a night for me.
A night for an angel.

I remember the first time you hit me.
You'd prefer if i saw no one,
I loved you, it was okay.

My friends 21st was approaching,
I'd wanted to go.

There'd be alcohol.
This was not alright.

You told me i'd not be going,
I insited i would.

The sharp pain across my face,
forced me to the floor.

The stronger pain,
was that you inflicted on my soul.

The tears ran freely,
he apologized quickly.

He still loved me,
I still believed.



I remember the first time you raped me.
I'd wanted to go home,
this was not an option.

I was being perstisant,
despite your apparent rage.

I was aware this would cost me,
never of the price.

I'd been able to block out the pain,
That is untill this night.

Your touch was not kind,
nor gentle.

That was the day you broke me,
that was the day i died.

I no longer believed


I remember when i built up enough courage to leave you.
You tried to stop me,
i'd run away.

You followed me to the train station
a crowd was not enough to stop your abuse.
You laid one last slap across my face.

I left.
I'd lost everything,
i lay in peices.

You tried to call me,
you tried to see me.

You robbed me of everything,
excep for my stubborness.

I remember the day i truely let go.
I sighed a breath of relief, and smiled.
a smile that truely was a smile of an angel.