Demon - thy name is self

I have finally found that person,

With whom I can truly share all

Yet just when the going is good

Why do I feel threatened?

My path has always been such

That it follows the same trail

Time and again

Yearn, want, need and finally find
 

Yet once found, not held ontoFor all that long, due to thisThe question is what causes thisTo slip through my very tiny fingers? Time and again this cycle will repeatTill I no longer stand on these two tiny feetFor the ground beneath teetersThe strangle hold of vertigo takes grip Looking deep within, I found the answerThe threat that lingers, outside the door held ajarThat presence that looms over me time and againIs none other than my ownInner demon Snarling at me from a distance,Slowly inching closer as the seconds tick byHer vindictive eyes taking it all inHer spiteful mouth twisting into that all calculating smile A grimace that causes me to winceFor I know she is about to strikePounce upon my happinessLike the learned predator she is She will consume all that is good in meDevouring me with glee, her helpless preyHow then do I stop this from happening this time?How do I stop and destroy this inner part that is me? Why does this part take over?A form of self preservation due to past lossIs what one would most like deduceHowever, why then is it my own happiness that I reduce? The answer to this softly asked question is posedTo her this inner demon that glowsWith a smug knowing of what is to comeNot this time, not this one I will not let her take hold,I will not let her win,I will fight her this timeFor the destruction that would occur if she is victor Will never be undone, will never be regainedSo be gone you venomous she demonLeave me be, set me free, let me liveFor this is my final chance, to cherish and treasure