there's a ghost in the machine and it's not me

1.

there's a ghost in the machine and it's not me



you need a vacation away from yourself

yeah, you're right, but wtf could i go
that isn't me?

i bought a new program,
i upgraded, i installed all the necessary
virus protection
i downloaded this that and the other

and i'm still sick of myself.

but hey, it's relatively early even
if it's later than i think, i have a whole
lifetime to change my mind

Ground Control to Major Tom

and relinquish control

Commencing countdown engines on

Five... Four…Three... Two… One…

now shut the fuck up
quit feeling sorry for yourself

earth girls are easy,
haven't you heard?


2.

she's watching  me
with those hawk eyes dangling
from her toes

the night is triumphant

and i'm a bit of a sore loser
emptying my drawers of pilfered
dreams i thought were mine,
it wasn't that i hadn't cut myself
bleeding and broken with the thought of you,

really and truly
i should hold a seance
invite the ducks, the orchids in the sky
these ghosts of  you
that won't let me go

if only i could grow lemon grass
and share a cup of tea.