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infinite_dwarf
infinite_dwarf
Jul 05, 2009 ⭐ View statistics (Premium feature)

Letting Go

I want to smash my fist through a wall
and watch the blood trickle down
Between still-clenched fingers

I need to stand on the highest peaks
and scream heavenwards language
that would make a grown man blush
Feel the reverberations carried on airwaves
as they hesitate
to carry their verbal cargo

Before finally being reduced
onto spent knees
Life-force runs out of me
in the form of my tears
in the sounds of choked sobs
in the realisations
that there must be a better way of letting go
— infinite_dwarf, Jul 05, 2009

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Region, Country: North Carolina, USA, USA

Favorite Poets: E.A. Poe, Lewis Carroll, Charles Bukowski, Michael McClure, Lawrence Ferlenghetti.

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Candlewitch

Candlewitch

16 years 11 months ago

What Happened?

This poem is very forceful and full of powerful emotions and imagery that hit like running into a brick wall! It has me wondering what happened and if you are alright (?) Always, Cat
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

Kitty Cat

Nothing really...happened... per se, was having a conversation with a friend about mutual hardships that we'd been through. It angers me that they were hurt. I don't like seeing a friend in pain. The poem kind of serves as a double-edged sword, as I'm also angry and frustrated with myself for everything that had gone wrong in my life - as well as not being there in the best capacity possible for friends who have been having stuff go wrong in theirs. I'll be ok, though, this actually helped to vent a little. Will send you a more detailed PM - promise. ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
Candlewitch

Candlewitch

16 years 11 months ago

I'm just so relieved

that you are physically okay. I was afraid that you were in a wreck. I'm glad that the poem served to vent. You are such a good writer that you scared the sh!t out of me! Always, Cat
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

wreck?

Oh no no no... one car wreck is enough for me for this year, LOL! I meant the rear-view mirror on my past... not literally my car's rear-view mirror. I should change that to explain better... geez.. Thanks again. ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

Mark

Thankyou. It was written in a moment of weakness where I needed to vent. I'm at a loss for words at the moment, as it's quite a surprise seeing you on my page. ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
Eduardo Cruz

Eduardo Cruz

16 years 11 months ago

Oh Veggie!

I felt the hurt and wanted so bad to help!! I thought the worst for a moment, and was ready to head up state, to help my friend. Then I read the comments and your answers, and happy I am again that you are alright to a degree!! So powerful a write, that I was ready to pack my gear and had out. It's been a while seen you wrote this way, but your emotions bring out the best in your writing always! Your bud always, fast Eddie Esquire "I control what I know, and what I don't know, I wait for advantage to come"
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

Fast Eddie!

Haven't seen you in a while, how have you been? I appreciate the concern, truly. I think I know what you're talking about when you mention "I thought the worst" - and know this: in my mind, the taking of my own life would be a sin, and I'd rather suffer the pains of life than have my soul eternally damned. At no point did I have such thoughts, friend, so no need to worry about that. The thought that you'd drive up here for a complete stranger baffles me greatly, but the sentiment is very much appreciated all the same. Thankyou again, my friend. Pals! ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
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Lonnie

16 years 11 months ago

We all worry, Jess!

When I read this to your Mom, she was quite concerned, as was I, until we read your comments to Candlewitch! Your Mom is still a bit concerned because she knows you so well, but that is for you and her to sort out! Me, I just love the imagery of the poem and its very powerful message!
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

thanks, Bear Bear

Tell mother not to worry - she knows the circumstances, as I've vented them many a time before now. It's just a frustration that things aren't moving in a direction I'd like fast enough... LOL! We've all been there. =) ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
Kailashana

Kailashana

16 years 11 months ago

We are sooooooooooooooooo

We are sooooooooooooooooo lucky to be poets, to vent AND be creative in the venting, and so make it possible for the reader to be ok with venting... Loved your poem. Brings up feelings and memories for me. I sometimes wrote (in my early poetry) with my fist to the sky, much like Scarlet O'Hara. I can't tell you how often someone wrote me a personal email thanking me for making it ok to FEEL what I feel. And Jess, don't we do the best we can at the time? Wouldn't we do better if we knew better? I'm pretty sure of that. Just remember, a broken fist/fingers hurts. Now smile. ~A "It is unwise to be too sure of one's own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err." Mahatma Gandhi
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

ahh Jess

While I understand your comment, I wish I didn't speak for you, as it means you were in a bad place. Thankyou, friend. ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits
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poewriter58

16 years 11 months ago

Jess

jess I would leave the rear view mirror part just as it is. It produces a very strong image and stronger feelings. I am very concerned though as to your well being. Know that I am always here my precious gift. Mom An excellent write
themoonman

themoonman

16 years 11 months ago

Powerful imaging...

I don't think I saw anything that might need changing, very powerful, and draining at the same time... made me feel it and that's what poetry is supposed to do... loved it. Richard
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chappell

16 years 11 months ago

Letting Go

The mental anguished expressed in this poem is very clear. Your use of poetry to vent is a gift that everyone doesn't have. Hope all is well! Enjoyed!
infinite_dwarf

infinite_dwarf

16 years 11 months ago

Thank you all, again

I'm humbled at the kindness of words that you all have offered. It is much appreciated, truly. ~Jess K. ----------------------- "Why worry? There should be laughter after pain. There should be sunshine after rain. These things have always been the same. So why worry now?" - Dire Straits