Where The 'Hell' Am I ?

Squeezed until there is no room,

I cannot breathe.

The days and nights grow smaller.

My attic is so full.

I need to move out and build bigger.

Arcane forces conspire,and the occult leaves me speechless.

The mystery of life is not what it seems.

Disappearing paths leave me standing in the midst.

Where did I go? When did it happen?

Crawling in the dark, my tortured soul screams obscenities.

It must be Karma,the old ways cling to me in retribution.

My fathers' sins visit me nightly.

Shout! I cannot hear you.

Light does reach for me, and fails.

Desert sands hold and burn my feet.

Touch my brow with icy fingers,and I will follow you.

Scary things,whisper behind me.

The dawn is too small and weak to banish them.

The ring is no protection,it steals from me all reason.

Yet I can't tear it from the chains that hold it to me.

Now bolts of blue- white lightning sear my brain.

The mountain is so high,and I do not wish to climb it.

Tell me once again,that it will be allright.

Make me believe. I want to believe. I have to believe.......