Tragic last moments

Tragic last moments,
 
Exposed with in a blinding light,
chance pillaging mercilessly,
I retreat to the core of my Katra.
Frantically riffling through it contents.
trying to understand this moment.

Swirling vision and loud popping sounds
echoing from what seems to be very far off. 
Barely penetrating and holey Desecrating 
the sanctity of the world I have always known
Random stupidity leaving filth in it's rampage.

I feel as my Aura goes limp with despair.
unwillingly readying myself to succumb to divine will.
Knowing only the consuming flashes of grief.
Beyond pain or fear.
For actions that now seem as if to be an eternity ago. 

Some place far, far away.....

My ears ringing with a sensation that I can not place.
A metallic taste stealing in to my mouth
as I feel myself slump to the pavement,
unable to control or stop the momentum.

Morfing into withered husk of conscience.
Only a distant witness as an officer of the law,
sworn to protect and serve.

Serve the people....

Protecting the world from dangerous villains... like me....

As he approaches, weapon drawn and smoking, 
kicking my gun from my limp hand. 
That is the last image I register.
Accompanied with the comprehension of what I have done,
and what it will do to my family.
Wistful last thoughts. 

As I am left to lay where I have fallen.
Where some how I died....

All in just a few tragic last moments.......

 

Julie
 
D.D.
 
5/31/2009
 
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