Losing My Granpa

If only I could see you smle again
If only I could hear your voice once more
I have hoped it was all pretend
I wanted to tell you I loved you for sure
You were my closest friend
My world is now in defile
When you died, I wanted my life to end
I now live in exile
For my saddness has grown
This an obstical I cannot ignore or cross
My despair was never before knownFor it is my granpa I have lost
He meant the world to me
But many can't see that
This person I am, I don't have to be
Inside I am trapped
Now that I am alone
I miss you so much now
Knowing that my sorrow is now known
But mere words will never tell anyone how..