i've forgotten how to love him

Bukowski is playing with my mind today,
he's talking dirty to the Mary Magdalene in me,
and i've forgotten how to love him:

in every occasional dream,
he turns his back
for i have sent him away,

my fists unclench and
my mouth opens smiling,
i laugh in spite of myself

there are days when we should
stay in bed with words,
like restless fingers
roaming wild with passion.

— Kailashana, Mar 03, 2009

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themoonman

17 years 3 months ago

Anna...

Bukowski inspirations... love your wordings! and sometimes I have to force myself to get up, but then there are times when I wake up and have to carry a notebook to the bathroom (sorry for that picture) cause I can't get the thoughts out fast enough without feeling I'll lose them.... How are ya doin? Richard

Kailashana

17 years 3 months ago

I hate not being in love.

I hate not being in love. (Unless being in love with love counts ;-)) And I hate not doing what I love to make money. All I have are these fingers, words and Bukowski. lol. Hugs, Anna "We have to try to get rid of the notion of time. And when you have an intense contact of love with nature or another human being, like a spark, then you understand that there is no time and that everything is eternal." Paulo Coelho

yenti

17 years 3 months ago

Sleep on young Lady

Bukowski will not awaken you to his baleful cry, born of the poor, the American dream, even poor poets make it to the top. This is great news as we may make it good sometime but maybe the years will wipe our thoughts away and leave us still poor, Then we can stay in BED. Lovely write, Yours Ian.T PS:- I wonder if Richard has one of those pads that you can write on underwater, the mind Boggles LOL Love you all.

Kailashana

17 years 3 months ago

Hi Ian, sometimes life seems

Hi Ian, sometimes life seems so luminescent, other times so heart-achingly cold and lonely.... it is good to have friends who know how to love, a comradery of kindred spirits. Thank you. ~A p.s. that is a Buddha in the lower right, yes? what is on the shelf above your head? Been meaning to ask. "We have to try to get rid of the notion of time. And when you have an intense contact of love with nature or another human being, like a spark, then you understand that there is no time and that everything is eternal." Paulo Coelho

yenti

17 years 3 months ago

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Answer to the Question on my pic, Yes, it is a Budda at the bottom right, the piece at the top is a painted Bronze one of three, That one is Spirit of the Raven, they are really beautiful, I sent pictures of them to Rett and he loved them, we have several things from the Indian people of North America, we sometimes do fund raising here for the ones at Great Falls, and I met a lovely family in Canada of the Sioux nation, they gave me a necklace, which is also really lovely. I teasure all these things as they seem to hold the spirit of the people that give them to you in some way where you can connect with them at any time, you take care out there, Yours Ian

Cloudthings

17 years 3 months ago

Superb write

Oh god I LOVED this work... Hah, brilliant in every way. I sooo relate to it, & the last lines made me laugh in recognition. A fantastic write, thank you A I love your quote by the way. Anni "Out beyond the ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I will meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about ideas, language, and even the phrase, "each other" doesn't make any sense."

Kailashana

17 years 3 months ago

O my, Anni! ….and I love

O my, Anni! ....and I love your quote.... lol. Much love and peace to all... see you Sunday... ~Anna http://www.numii.net/word_press/people/anna http://www.poetry-chaikhana.com/Forum/viewforum. (Poetry Chaikhana Forum) "We have to try to get rid of the notion of time. And when you have an intense contact of love with nature or another human being, like a spark, then you understand that there is no time and that everything is eternal." Paulo Coelho

R.M.Shanmugam

17 years 3 months ago

The last stranza well

The last stranza well structured. nice write up. shan

Kailashana

17 years 3 months ago

Thank you Shan… always

Thank you Shan... always know that my poems *mean* something when kindred spirits read them... ~A "We have to try to get rid of the notion of time. And when you have an intense contact of love with nature or another human being, like a spark, then you understand that there is no time and that everything is eternal." Paulo Coelho