Was God asleep? (In memory of my brother.)

Was God asleep
or looking somewhere else?
But how could we expect
even such almighty eyes
to see so many tragedies
around the world, each day?

It would be nice to pass the buck
up to the highest spheres,
and rage at heaven, like Lear on the heath:
"How could you let this happen,
you, the all-powerful, all-knowing,
great big BOSS?"

More often, after suicide,
survivors point sharp fingers,
and closest ones attract our blame:
instead of sharing our deep grief,
we hurt each other yet again.