Death

Sorry to butt in but as long as you are alive you have a life. It may not be exactly the kind of life you would like, but it can be changed, little by little, into something much better. I too have been through harsh times (though I realise that each person has different problems) so I think I know how you feel. Best Wishes once more, Robert.

If your words reflect your real state of mind and not that of a persona I would ask you to consider that our lives are in constant flux and that what you call 'living' is only your present, not your future. If you have a terminal illness there is nothing you can do except learn to accept your fate and try to enjoy your last days, months, weeks or years as much as possible (or if you are religious, praying or a belief in an afterlife may help). If you are feeling depressed or even suicidal, on the other hand, there are other options. In Britain I believe you can phone the Samaritans, who are specialists in this kind of problem, or search for them on the internet - and there may be other support-groups of that kind. I failed to phone such groups when my brother had a deep depression and he took his life shortly after I left him, so I will always regret that mistake. If you find that contact with neopoet members is helpful, as you suggested in your last message, then keep writing to them as much as possible, especially to people who you already know and trust, and ask them to reply as soon as possible. There is nothing to be ashamed of about a depression. It's just another illness, like mumps or measles. The problem is that it sometimes lasts longer. You just have to hang on in until it goes. I had one for several years after the death of my brother, but now I seem to be back on my feet and enjoying life even more than before my illness. I guess I have managed to forgive myself... Best Wishes, Robert.

but if this is you and now I suggest you contact the Samaritans fast. They are experts in dealing with your kind of problem, and I believe their services are free. If my brother had contacted such people when he needed them, he might still be alive. Depression is only a transitory state. All you have to do is wait and it will go. And if it's someone letting you down that caused this pain, he probably isn't worth caring about quite so much anyway. Please hang on in. There are so many other fish in the sea, new good times to enjoy in your future and so on. Best wishes, Robert.

what was it meant to be? Respectfully Yours, Barbara

(:Huggggggggggggggggs Huggggggggggggggggs:) Respectfully Yours, Barbara