A Toast, to the Fallen Chandelier

Everything you told me
And everything we did
Everything we made and everything we hid
My heart beat with ferocity, blood boiled in pain
My skin pealed off
And my mind went insane

Wake up alone again
Like the night wont set me free
Walk through life in darkness
Like the day refuses to be
Take me out behind the tool shed, shoot me dead
I don’t deserve to live, I don’t deserve to die
I need to be killed, so we could survive…

Up above the sky so high
Look down at me, wish me goodnight
Kiss me on the forehead, sing me lullabies
I was a stranger to hate; I was a stranger to love
I held you in my arms there; the night wouldn’t let me be

I miss you, with all my heart
Every cell in me demands your return
Every emotion in me refuses not to burn
I could bring you back; I could set you free
Please just return to me
Come back to me, even if it is only in my dreams

I drink, and I drink, till I collapse
My house is a disaster, the wallpaper’s been torn down, the table broke in half
Rooms littered with trash
Carpet ripped up

Pictures of you and me, and who we used to be, lay scattered on the floor
I needed to escape this; I couldn’t take it any more
I tied rope around my neck, and plunged to the floor
The chandelier followed me down on my path to you
Now it lays there… shattered and misconstrued
I lay beside it, broken inside and out
I tried to come back to you, to be there when you need me and when I needed you

I propose a toast, to this fallen chandelier
“To love, to hate, to life, to death, I will see you again…”