I'm Not Drunk, You're Not Drunk Are You?

Picking up the mess we made last night

Forgetting to remember to call you when I awoke

Trying to place the night on a time line

It’s getting harder to put a name to the face I adore

Another hour of this then I’m going to take a shower

The stains from your lips still plague my skin

I found the shirt that you were looking for under my blankets

I found the lighter that you wanted to use to gradually kill yourself

Stumbling to the shower with a head full of ache

Sit there on the floor and begin to recollect my memories

Let the burning water stream all over me

Let it rinse off all the filth, the lies, and the dirt

Your kisses were poison lining my blood stream

And with every one I felt more intoxicated

Your fingers were like feathers as they grazed my skin

Tiny radiations of pulsations tickling me down to my soul

I found the that poem that you wrote me when we first met

I found that picture of us with the face wide smiles

Thought about you for hours till I finally called you

Thought about things and how much I regret

Thought about all the times we had, good or bad

Thought about everything you ever told me about myself

Then I heard your voice on the receiver

A steady stream of words from an angel’s lips

My fingers trembled and my eyes clamped shut

I let everything go

My whole heart, my soul, my emotions flow

I thought telling you I loved you would make you think clearer

I thought telling you everything would set us straight

I guess that I am losing touch

I am sorry I care too much

But every night when I close my eyes in bed

I see your eyes looking back

And every time someone tries to hold me

I just can’t accept

I know this sounds erroneous

But I tried…

But I tried…I guess I can’t do this any more

Picking up the pieces of my face in mirrors

Left scattered on the floor, is this what you really see?

I thought I was something of beauty

That my soul could shine through my skin

I guess this is reality

I tried…

I tried…

I found your feelings mirroring my feelings

I found your eyes in my eyes