Perspective

I keep floating down this river
But the end never comes
My back fills with shivers
As the cold fills my lungs
I fall into patterns of different colored dreams
And everything gets smaller
But the distance stays the same
And everything eventually
All comes out the same… whether or not you’re to blame

Every heart I hold
Looks at me in disgust
Every dream I dream to bold
It never comes out just
Am I just imaginary
Or am I forever stuck
In the blood of the lonely or the dreams of the cowards that I love
That I love…

What was it that she said, three years ago
“forever you would stand on mountains to see it all, you got so much love inside your heart, I don’t think you can hold it all… you cant hold it all….”
So let go forever
And dream someone else
It seems so much easier, than anyone could tell
I have made mistakes, yes, and I had fixed them all
Now three years later I hear these similar words
“you would wait forever until I came back… I love you and I need you take me back…. Take me back… but I wont come back…”

I stand alone in doorways
Like an image from the past
A dream state sequence that refuses to last
So I saunter to atticks
Where I find common ground
Holiday décor along with the things we never think about
And I am not worthy of you
I never could amount
To hold loves glory with you
I failed to see the end
We ended so quickly I couldn’t catch my breath

I keep floating down this river
But the ending never comes
Like a cruelly configured circle
To lay my life out