Treasure

If I tell you

I never wanted to hurt you

Does that make the hurt any less?

I suppose not

What if I didn’t tell you that?

Would you think that I did want to hurt you

That I was cruel

That that is what was going on in my heart?

Again

I suppose not

What then?

Why then?

In a nutshell:

            It just made

            Me

            Feel better

How selfish

How human

Now

What do you think I should have told you?

What do you think I should have said?

You don’t have an answer to that

Do you

Except to say, The truth?

Well the truth is...

The truth is I never wanted to hurt you

I did

As the song goes

You can’t always get what you want

And we didn’t

We

You and I

Both of us

That is sad

But if you try sometimes

Isn’t that how it goes?

If you try sometimes/you just might find...

Find what,

Do you remember?

No

I don’t know what we were looking for anymore either

It has vanished

Disappeared

Died

In fact

I think it died a long time ago

Someone just forgot to tell me

Damn that someone

They are a real bastard

See what I did there?

I blamed somebody

Cuz that’s what we do

That’s what we humans do:

            We lay blame

I don’t think it should be about blame anymore

Just mistakes

Just like we all wish to lay blame

We all make mistakes

And then

As I think more

I think it shouldn’t even be about the mistakes

I think it should be about grieving

About loss

Even the mistakes become meaningless

As time stretches

As alone becomes more real

All we have in the end

Is the loss...

Oh yes

And the memories....

Treasure them.