Love-Life-Death

I was looking out the window close to the door, when I thought to myself, I got what I wanted I couldn’t ask for more. But then all of a sudden I felt I had made a huge mistake. A mistake that took a long time to make. I wanted so long for something that wasn’t right, it hurt so bad I would cry every night. I didn’t think of what this would bring, now what do I do since I did the wrong thing. I could just tell him goodbye, but then I might cry, I shouldn’t be the one to dismiss, I’ve waited so long for this. The light is dim, all I ever wanted was Him. So I picked up the phone and started with 321…He picks up His cell and I yell “we’re done.” I slam the phone down and He calls back, He says “I’m sorry and I want you back. I can tell you’ve liked Him and not me. I understand but I don’t agree” “I   just now realized what I have done, and finally realized that you are the one.” “I really love you and I always will. I just wish you loved me still, I guess that’s ok baby I promise hurt I will no longer give,” my eyes started to burn which meant I would cry. I felt so bad I wanted to die, which one I write, which one is the best thing to do, I had absolutely no clue I didn’t want to dread. I felt a headache coming on from the back of my head, I wanted to end all the hate, love, and pain. I watched the water go to the street and into the drain. I finally hung up the phone saying “sorry hun” went to my room where I found a gun. There was a tag on it that said “shoot me please,” and I looked over and saw Him there on His knees, He was there all along, He knew I liked the other guy I guess He could tell by the look in my eyes, maybe that’s true love, maybe He is the one, oh my god this is not fun, I really love Him but I like Him too, right now I have no clue what to do, I really should listen to my heart, I didn’t like Him but today I start, I really do love Him and I always will. Up my spine I felt a chill. It was too late He grabbed the gun from me. Then He whispered slowly and softly, “I love you, you don’t even like me maybe? Come on, I just don’t get it baby.” And He pointed the gun to His head, “if I don’t have your love, I’m dead,” a tear rolling down my cheek and my legs are beginning to get weak. I put my head in my hands and thought-look what all this has brought, I was just about to tell Him “I love you, don’t pull it,” but when I looked up I saw a knife and blood but no bullet, He had cut Himself on the arm and He wrote a little note, now he picked up the knife and held it to His throat, I’m yelling and I ran over to get Him to stop but it was too late…then suddenly I saw Him drop. I was overwhelmed with tears this after I love Him all those years. I picked up a note and it read “I put the gun on top of your bed, I wrote your name on my arm but don’t worry it didn’t do me any harm. It doesn’t hurt anymore but it will stay there until my funeral day. Now you know who put me this way.” I dropped the note, got a pen and paper and wrote “I love Him too, He didn’t know now its time to let it show…He is the one” then I dropped it and picked up the gun, I slowly pulled the trigger and away I went, now I’m going where He was sent, now I’m counting angels 9-10-11-12. Now we can forever be together in Heaven, I think its better this way, I did like the other guy but not today, I finally realized I love Him so…and now everyone on earth and in Heaven will know.