Dead and Alive !?

i find out that i am now dead

strange !
i remember going to bed
i was so tired

and now
i am both dead
and alive

but here i am
still thinking
still seeing

i am still conscious !

i am now looking at my body
my face has a smile on it

i am dead
not dead
i am dead

there are people
in the room

i see thundclaps
of emotion
i see anger
i see sorrow

murky red colours
swirling

black clouds hanging

the rains of  sadness
baptise my dead body