Executioner With A Conscience

so far
yet so much further
than I can reach
to smell your
comforting smell
the presence which
devoted so many years
to the way I am now
and here I am
without your comforting smell
a smell which meant so much
to me as a child of yours
so far
yet so much further
than I can reach
to lose myself
in your comforting
and loving smell
how much I love you
and  each day my love
searches for the arrival
of your unique smell
then I awaken from
my nightly dream
in which I realise
you died in 2001
and I was the one
who gave the nod
to the doctors
to send you on your way
far away