My Confession

  This pain crawls within No god can forgive this sin I could sugar coat the story But I’d rather say I’m sorry To the man I want to someday be Dad won’t you listen to this side of me When it comes to mistakes I made them all All these lessons gave me the courage to stand tall From Dowling’s drama to my so called depression Today I will make an honest and hidden confession I never thought I would stop taking those damn pills A part of me thought god granted me mountains and hills How should I know I had an ally that somehow understood? That even though I had a temper there was also some good Shocking to some but facts to my father who hid his tears Men don’t cry but within he solved a dilemma that lasted years I know I am not perfect but to him I was just shy of perfection At times I believed that all he gave me was rejection My dreams to him seemed ludicrous and impossible Now he knows that what I do could one day be possible Thank you is a start but it would need the bond that I yearn Through the pain I knew that his compassion I didn’t need to earn I know that you will always be the man that will always care Tonight I find inner strength in my father’s stare