Damaged heart

Your words still echo loudly

Through the canyons of my soul.

And even though you’ve been long dead

I often lose control.

You didn’t ever love me.

You told me everyday.

And if I could I’d ask you,

Why didn’t you just stay away.

You jerked me all around.

I never knew which way was up.

And even after all these years I’ve found

It’s hard for me to trust.

My heart screams out "I hate you!"

I know I’m supposed to forgive,

And I know that I’ll be trying

For as long as I have left to live.

And then as if to prove it

You took what all was left

And gave it to another,

And stuck the knife in my chest.

You shamed me into believing

I was never good enough.

And even though I always try,

Believing in myself is tough.

You rubbed "Growing up" in my face

As if it was a curse.

And thinking at all about you

Usually only makes me feel worse.

Sometimes I ignore the images

That threaten to bury me alive,

But more often they overwhelm me

And it takes everything I have in me to survive.

Wolfycat.