From past pains to present hauntings

From past pains to present hauntings

though these feelings remain deeply hidden in my past

they tend to surface every now and then

bringing with them, memories so painful,

memories that tear at my soul, ripping it to shreds

they play themselves out in my mind, like an old time horror spoof

a festival of blood, guts and gore,

this sounds to gruesome to mention you might think,

and you would be right in thinking this, because i live it

i breathe in the fear when it surfaces

i feel the claws of panic grabbing at me

i feel the breathless loss of control that envelops me

when these memories strike me out of the blue

during these times day to day functions go on auto pilot

i wander around as though i am on another plain

here on earth, yet not quite a part of my surroundings

its moments like these where nothing makes sense, it is all scrambled

bits of my past life scattered around me

flowing over to my present life, threatening to overwhelm me

thoughts of what has occurred , memories of your touch

makes my skin crawl, my heart go cold with utter loathing

of a crime that you, and you alone with full knowledge committed

against me, knowing full well the damage you would cause

the unrepairable harm and pain that you have inflicted on me

and who knows how many other unsuspecting souls

your day will come, you self centered overbearing arrogant individual

the title of human being is definitely not befitting of you

the time will come when you number is up, my once trusted friend

and may you have the strength to face you demons when you meet your final end!