My final declaration

My final declaration

Lying alone in the dark

Waiting for the arms of sleep to enfold me

The all consuming warmth that it brings

Refuge from you, and all your brutality

Yet, even in sleep your presence is not erased

Thoughts of you intrude on my sleep, enveloping me in fear

Your scent invades my senses, your voice echoes in my mind

Things said, past and present, play them selves out in my minds eye

Thoughts that should bring joy, one would think

Not in this case, thoughts of you bring out

The worst feelings of anger, fear and pain

Possibly imaginable to rise to the surface

Erupting into an all consuming need to resolve

A thirst for revenge, a need for redemption

But this will never be mine

You carry on going on your path of destruction

You obliterate everything good and pure

You cause all happiness to melt away

Your bring nothing but heartache, pain and suffocation

All in for the purpose of your self gratification

Self gratitude that you are not due

Heartache, pain not your right to claim

A suffocation of free will and individuality

Not yours to inflict

You no longer have that right,

You no longer warrant any presence in my life

My soul or my heart

Neither in my mind

This was never your claim to stake,

Never was and never will be

For it will be a cold day in hell

Before you will enter my life again.