Perfect Today

I lied to everyone When I said I didn’t love you And I would be lying to myself If I won’t admit That leaving you is my biggest regret I can’t change time And I can’t change what I have done But I can change   I fall in your eyes Like a deer in headlights The subtle changes in our ways Echoes off the walls in ignorance I can’t change the world I can’t change your heart to love me But I have been here all along I hear you when you cry And I know everytime you lie I can feel you when you breathe Am I still nothing to be seen?   I am so sorry- That I have done all these things I am so sorry- That I can’t change the past to be perfect today   I lie to everyone When I say I am not alone inside I fail to see the light Even when I am stuck here in darkness But still, if I could give you back the life That I took that night I would change the world To be perfect today   I cry every morning When I realize- That you won’t be there to heal my wounds And I die on the inside When I see that the world has no sympathy for me What have I done-? To receive this pain What have I done-? To feel this way   I am so sorry- That I haved done all these things I am so sorry- That I can’t change to past to be perfect today   The night stabs me like a million little teeth Bringing the aweful truth to me That I am forever alone The morning brings its clear light That was missing all night But still I fail to see   I don’t deserve you Or any of the things you do I have fought for so long But my heart has been torn apart so many times, That I am losing all faith in love   I am so sorry- For all the things that I have done I am so sorry- I can not change the past to be perfect today