the choice

reaching out towards you.
I can see a slight glimpse.
is this how its supposed to be.
mixed thoughts and cravings intimately true.
forever under your thumb upholstered on a tree
i can feel your heart beat against mine
so strong
so lonely
so scared.
strokes and diseases imbedded by time.
sweet dearest beat
painful swallow
lonely walking feet
erased by your fierceful callow
Im bored and frightened every day.
shrieking inside at you constantly.
desolute and crying for you to stay.
pushing you and trembling like a baby.
This blistering heat inside.
come out and play with me evermore
But, the dreary darkness is here.
lay under my hair to hide.
flesh on my flesh, like claret seeping pores
distance is welcoming, please devoir
peak it to excavation
destitute and sour
grip at my veins
turn away from evation.
soak in the salty rain
bestow your heart towards mine
decide eternally, deaf and dumb and blind