again

give me an insight to your thoughts.
smile down into my eyes, while you eloquently kick me down.
the confusion hurts worse than the ultimate decision to let me go.
i welcome you to cast my soul to an eternal pain.
My flesh is slowly burning
overwhelmed with all of this mixed hate, oozing with the desire to love.
I feel the energy flowing from your heart to mine.
while the wall u have around it crushes and bruises my desire and warmth.
So push me away.
find me..
then brutely shove.
again
fear overrides us through my despair and your rationality to confine.
Just let it happen.
make it right.
make me whole.
The warmth is here.
see it.
embrace it.
Hide.
So scared to run.
flee to the comfortable illusion of sleep.
So sour and so sweet, u pushed it all on me once again.
Allow me to slip , knowing it could never be.
Im falling so hard and fast, please let me go before i crack. gripping onto the thought of what could of been.
The light of dreams.
walk away from me.
Its too late.

im on my hands and knees.
bowing down to your insecurities.
strip my defenses till my eyes bleed profusely.
make me pour out this grey numbness i constantly feel.
slice my heart untill u find the piece that puzzles into yours.
make me nothing, as long as your cupping my illusion in your palm
there is  something deep and black in your green eyes, driving me to madness
come back to me again and again.
the despair overtakes me.
seeping out through my junked pores.
why do u accept this confusion, knowing that im dying inside.
Take me higher, make me repeatedly suffer.
again and again.
Beat me down.
show me how to live.
just to turn your back on me in the end