Never Meant For You

Detestation I have for you.The human race. Counterfeit money is people. Fake indeed! Perverse thoughts linger in my mind. Thoughts of you are always tainted. Why must you be in my thoughts? Nihilist. I dont live for you or anyone. I live for one god. Stand before his feet. Feel his adoration towards me. Such a vile world I have entered. Disgust for humanity. Found the innovative me. Distorted I may be. Unattainable.Breathtaking. You are. 1001 1215 1233 numbers are lasting in my memory. You are startling. Hatred in your eyes. My urges for you are uncontrollable. Infatuated with the number seven. Green is my favorite color. We all feel alone. You are in the back of my mind always. Space is saved for you. Only you may enter. I've been waiting for this to be completed. Millions of people around I only see you. Fake.False.Copied. Pretend is what everyone else is to me. I want answers. Answers to the sins I have made. No longer shall I be damned. Seeing is believing. What do you see? FUCK! You aren't real. Can't see you. Imagining you. Feeling worse now. Are you better? Don't converse my name. He left us all following him. Laying in your fabrication. I lost you. Finding myself never alone. Scream before me on your knees. Shot down by his own bullet of defeat. The walls of isolation closing in on you. White lace draped over you. Ferocity of life. Cut you out of my life. You made me fall to my knees. Submit to you. Cry out for you. Fade away. Broken and victorious. Who am I? I am the one who whispers in your ear. The one who you see from the corner of your eye. The one who catches you when you fall. The one who lets you drown in your vomit. The one who saves you from yourself. The one who picks you up as you lay dying. The one who pieces you back to gather. When you break apart. Find me in your thoughts. Insomnia drives you mad. This one goes out to you. Deadly is your stare. Looking thru me like stained glass. Drowning in your beauty. Frantic it may be. Lives have been lost. Reclaim yourself. Triumph over the weak and torn. Salvage your arrogance. Humility shall over come you. Remember what she said. You hesitate when our bodies press together. I desire you. Never regretful. Give me your secrets. Fingers intertwine. Press our lips together. Wrapped together. Together we can't be stopped. Never will we diminish. Forever as one. Moving in the shawdows. Insecure around me. Your sweet taste is stained on my lips. Raise our drinks to honor the fallen. The fallen will rise to our victory. Follow me. Never abandoned. Take me as I am. Paranoia taking our souls. Looking for something that ain't never there. THIS WAS NEVER FOR YOU OR ANYONE