Murray-the melancholic grouch: Press conference

 WAS ASKED  HOW I WAS DOING ..

 I TURNED AND REPLIED "I’M DOING FINE."
She looked me straight in the eyes and said
I was lying….
Listening to her statement sorta blew my mind
Cause the entire day I’d been walking on sunshine, that ‘happy go lucky’ attitude was soley mine…until…
A few simple words from an alien to me instantly disabled my mood
Now I’m down in the dumps…slightly enraged!!! How could I allow such a thing to take place, why wasn’t my response to that of better grace instead of my typical blank expressionless face.
Why couldn’t I have just ignored her and walked away, I had to engage that’s one of my worst traits. Her opinion isn’t one that I refer to regularly, n fact there would be no contact if it where up to me, her personality disgracefully, it’s like discussing physics with a manatee. So the question at hand why should a man as poised and enlightened as I be affected in this way. I implode my thoughts for say, chaotic searching inward deep with in for some type of answer but the questions are forgotten, if there was ever a question to start, the search itself distracts, and other question reappear WHY DO I EVEN CARE?   I am only a person that can be easily reminded of my own physical being with just a simple inquiry of my mood. I sometime believe that when I’m unhappy that no one else is. Selfishness: is almost a gateway attitude to other things, in my own little bubble flying off the handle  and saying hurtful things are extremely justifiable in the heat of the moment and never consider that the person IM verbally mutilating has a lot more things to be bummed about but they don’t embrace the -negs- instead they tolerate spoiled jackass’s that blow up because they’re upset about simple brat-ish things. Selfishness: will prevent you from apologizing even after you have realized that you where wrong, selfishness will step right in front of you heart and put it in a chokehold, saying sorry isn’t for the selfish. As I am afflicted with selfishness otherS may have compulsions to steal that they can’t control, some people have to spend every sent of the money that the get from what means necessary just to appease a proverbial monkey on there back(addiction), some people can’t control their bodily function but they all get by everyday, in some aspect if viewed in the appropriate condition all these behaviOrs could be considered lewd or offensive but I bet if you where to tell any of them you could fix it for them they would gladly except the offer.  end