Combination

You fed her pollutants through your promises
which strangled her every word.
prevented her last breath
of fresh air
to escape
and reach out to your raw, blackened, lungs.
YOU trapped her in an abyss of turmoil
allowed her to wield thoughts of blame inside and
rest
while
she digested the stench of your vile breath
and she continued to inhale your intoxication.
Bent out of shape
her limbs  move
Fluctuate into this new organic
Silhouette
Form
Conform
Create
Not create
Re-create this new image
Mold her imperfections
Into the chest
That her breast don’t belong to.
Her body continues to change
Sprouting new
Contour lines
that
Instantly rip her flesh
 causing
Tiny trickles
Seething through the
Slits that have been cut
Out of her
Her eyes built wells so you no longer saw her tears
her pain rained droplets of blood
Drowning in the taste of liquefied poison
Creating deadened coils wrapped around her tongue
And ice around your love
Because of your insatiable intoxication.
Sit still and you will hear the sounds of her dying cries
the glass shattering heart aching soul shivering spine trembling cries that never seem to decease.
The love you rejected, that only wanted to be belong but never once received. I manifest into confetti
Attaching bits to
Each negative thought that has entered
This child’s head
Connecting the deteriorated
Pieces of internal abuse
Together
Form
Conform
Create
Not create
Re-create this new image
Mold her imperfections
Releasing the self loathe:
5 years of
Verbal cruelty
Physical neglect
And constant scrutiny
By eyes that have been tainted
SO
Together we are
Forming
Conforming
Creating
Not creating
Re-creating this new image
Molding our imperfections
Trying to live up to our own standards of beauty
Instead of
Perpetuating the cycle of self hate