"They Don't Understand"

A past like hers is one that not many want to hear spoke of.. And she is afraid to share.. One that is filled with fear and pain.. Starting at such a young age  that someone put upon her..A pain that should of never been made.. She should not be alive to tell the story.. Some many times she should of instead died.. At different times she has wished that she had. Because of the things that she has been Thur that nobody should have to go Thur.. "They don't understand" what they did to her.. How these things will and have effected her all her life.. She is tortured my the nightmares and the fears.. She is tormented my the memories of those days.. Unable still to speak of them.. Still unable to hear of them.. Unable to even find comfort about them from others.. She keeps getting told she must speak of it and face it.. That she must tell to be set free.. To be able to live a life of peace.. "They don't understand" though what this would mean.. The pain, the anger, the fear, the horror that would be set free from here... And then all would leave and she would be like that long ago little girl sitting in the corner alone.. "They don't understand" what she still sees everyday.. That she is trying to make it disappear and go away.. That she can not handle doing this.. That it would be like tearing out her heart.. That it would feel like the greatest pain to man.. "They don't understand"..  She would turn into that child full of fear again.. To sit and question everything that she does or says.. Unsure that she is really even living today.. Do you see her?? Is she only your imagination?? Is she maybe just floating around somewhere lost again.. How are you or she to know?? Where does this all begin?? Where does it all end?? Can she truly ever be free of this?? The pain.. The fear.. The anger.. The confusion.. She only wants to be able to trust again.. to be loved and feel it with out fear too.. To not fear being left abandoned like has happen so many times before.. "They don't understand" what they have done to her.. How they have ruled her life..  How she still feel like that lost hurt child..