verse-
head against the wall
i'm waiting for your call
but i know you can't right now

the safety net is stretching
every time i fall
and they've got me figured out

bridge-
yes i'm scared to death
but does it mean a thing?
yes i said i miss you
but that couldn't give you wings

chorus-
blackout
turn the lights out
i gotta get out
before i go crazy again
shout
scream it out loud
how this love will be stronger
than the rest

Emotions poured into the glass, as I rid the grasp life has
We all crave perfection instead we marry rejection
For a moment life seems like fairy tales and dreams

My fears found a voice and spoke to me, this can’t be
I want to poison the demon that won’t stop screaming
On this one way path to the unknown has my courage shown

I have been taught to trust in a world of lies and lust
I was taught to be honest even after every broken promise
When I cried they looked away, oh humanity is lost this day

I see her hidden
in plan sight
hands pressed
to her eyes
this image remains
among few

a day that won't wake up
I slide into a pocket
fortified against drafts

carve away tenderly my soul
pull me from the flesh
born by my mother

gather up the curious
the beloved
and indifferent

let the Sheenyman sift
my treasures slender
and part out the ashs

and if you could
would you let my
fall on the river winding
for I was a traveller once
and a dreamer always

Good poets only compose,
To read their creative work,
When they are on their deathbed, alone
When there is none to moan,

No sounds of music
No sensations,
Dead feelings
And
The distant drums beating are heard,
Just to keep one alive,
Then upon the soil of ego
Man does survive
Just to die
He has a feeling
Of still being alive

What sense does it make
that as the legs grow weaker
the steps grow steeper?

wet sniffles thru smudged rose blush
she finds her face in her hands
blowing smoke from her refry stinks
up the city, stealing sobs and bitcheries
but they still don’t make any mace for stats
and for that
she doesn’t weep
but she cries,
                           cries,
                                       cries.
referring to older allusions
she holds steady to any yesters
so many “i told you so’s” driven home
make you pull like a mule, like a mule, like a mule

hold fast this dreaming lush
stand in winters blush
the weight of hour
falling

falling like the dark
this edge of ache
where love waits

there are immaculate
dreams
and visions sharp as claws
there are diaomnd flaws
this need
for soft spoken words
kissed like whispers
warmth and speed

the calamity choas
are ghosts heed
lost like shadows
Skattered
betrothed

the wild
caress
touched deep
and kept

fond this precious
light
shed

Golden locks flowing
Sunlight sparkling bright blue eyes
My love is everlong

I gave pain an anesthetic sick of seeming pathetic
Cutting misery’s spleen with claws of wolverine
I threw melancholy off the tenth floor balcony

Agony I do ignore as she bleeds on the mahogany floor
Oh, such deeds are chaotic, maybe I’m psychotic
Or maybe I’m saving me with this vivid imagery
My smiles no longer a bastard, in me look what he’s mastered

Tonight, I give my pen to laughter, as she writes this chapter
No more waiting for the sun to rise I can close my eyes