Dcoups

He’ll be 8 now, I’d guess, or thereabouts
I hope his tiny tail still wags when he sees you
I miss throwing that frisbee
and watching him chew it
I miss holding your hand whilst we walked, too

We were fluent in each other back then
 still, I know how you like your tea
I wish I didn’t remember the feeling
of the people we used to be
Now I spend most of my nights up late, thinking
"I’d go back right now if you asked me"

I still flinch when a song from that summer plays
whole playlists banished by grief
I’m sorry I kicked you off my Spotify
I guess it was a way to control how you’d leave

I was miserable and I’d still go back
It hurt and was still the best thing I had
Since then I haven’t had something like that
Still chasing the high that we had

Maybe we were never meant to make it
one of life’s cruellest lessons I guess
I lost a best friend, a lover, her family
we were something, nothing more nothing less

For a short but potent few years
We were honest, raw and utterly in love
Or that’s what I called it before the nights
I felt like I could never be enough

I went by your old workplace on main street
I wonder where you’re working now
Are you getting the most out of your English degree
I always knew you’d make your family proud
It’s weird knowing that at your graduation
I was still wondering if you wanted me there
Or that person you met a few months ago
The “just a friend” with the brownish blonde hair

I guess I knew I was easily replaceable
In that moment I knew we were done
Still we kept on pseudo-loving each other
Although most of the love was already gone
So, I hope you’re happy now
Not in a regretful I wish it was me way
Well a little bit in a wish it was me way
but I hope you’re happy with you
with whoever you’re with if you’re with someone

After all the hurt we'd been through
I’d rather you be content, than be with me
My world wobbles now without you
Does your world wobble now without me?