I had a dream last night, so often I don’t remember my dreams now.

I am in the dark and I meet a man; when he comes close to me and I feel the rush of attraction, I am wearing black. He takes me to his house, I’m back in Mexico, the house is old, in disorder and has many rooms, we walk through several each one with a different floor tile and we enter a large bedroom. He grabs me roughly and I am afraid. I pull back. He accuses me angrily and I know he is going to take me. I grab a folding chair and use it to defend myself; he steps back and lets me go. I am disoriented and do not know how to get out of the house, there are so many rooms and corridors all with no logical order, I go from one room to another trying to find the door through which we entered. I end up in a bathroom and use the toilet, in that moment I hear voices and there are several men whom give the impression of being Asiatic, they see me and accuse me of being there. I realize that they too live in this house. I feel embarrassed being on the toilet, so I draw myself up and in that moment I see the wooden door that leads to the street.  I let myself out. Outside it is dusk and the street is long and straight with what look like parking meters at equal intervals, they appear to glow. I need to follow them. I now fantasize that they are the necks of guitars and a wind comes down the street and each one hums a different tune making harmonic music. I walk and I awake.

Can I ever be so humbled by the revelations that I am permitted to see. Only dimly in the darkness but I feel renewed. As I semi woke from my dream I perceived the matrix of which we are all part. Can I describe it? Only with some difficulty, in an instant I saw that everything is a swirling matrix of atoms and subatomic particles all is energy in constant change. It was as if the world was in bas-relief as the atoms join together and form a person, a tree, a chair it really doesn’t matter what because everything is formed from the same substance. As I looked upon this image I knew that there is a depth that we can not access and that is which is behind this incredible mass of pure energy. Oh how poorly we see, us human beings caught in the matrix and believing it to be reality.

As I conciously held my sight  still in this matrix I knew that I was in my center and I could choose to form from this place a vision and a projection. This is power and this is responsibility to choose carefully. I know I am a wanton rebellious soul , I can be contrary and trite and yet I live and breathe to wake up again and know exactly which step I must take. I am grateful for this day, for my beating heart, for the potential to experience, for a new opportunity.